It's slightly slow at work

I don't actually have that much to update, but I felt like blogging. This week has gone by fairly quickly, and the weather is finally beautiful! Who knows how long that will last though :p It's been ranging from snow (SNOW!) to balmy 70s for the last few months. Maybe spring is finally here to stay. The bluebonnets are coming out, and they look beauuutiful. I need to be one of those crazy people who runs across traffic to take pictures. Hehe.

Been feeling good today, mostly because Matt came home and surprised (scared) me for lunch. Gotta love thinking you're alone in the house and some giant man walks through the bedroom ;) Anyhoo, it's nice to be thought of.

I decided, in contradiction to previous thoughts, that I need to take my last class in the fall. I have no idea whether it will be Latin or French; I need to take my MARS placement for French to see how many classes would be left. If only one, then I'm taking French at Midland online, which is significantly cheaper and easier (and I would be able to work somewhere full time)

As for the job front, well I'm still trying to find one. Still haven't heard back from the interviews. Starting to worry unnecessarily. Anyhoo.

Like I said, no real reason for updating. Here's a pretty picture of New Mexico to make you happy.

Sleepy time

The internet is being spotty, so who know if this will post. We haven't had the extra cash for a wireless router yet, so we've been mooching off of someone's unprotected signal. Heh.

Life is pretty stressful right now. I've finally been getting some interviews, but I haven't heard back yet and I'm starting to get concerned; the end of the semester isn't too far off. Anyways, money has been pretty tight, but we haven't had to resort to ramen yet, which is always a positive! I wish I could contribute more to the household, but that's why I'm looking for a better job.

Family life is still in the dumps. I heard from my mom and one of my sisters today for the first time since early February (that's two months folks); no word from the other sister. I felt awkward calling, so I sent emails and texts back. Not sure how it's going to pan out. Dad and I are still good; we went to see him on Saturday to pick up my passport and SS card.

We attempted to go to Comicpalooza on Saturday too. I say attempted, we did go, but it was a waste of time. 60$ we could have spent on something worth 60$. Sigh. Didn't get any autographs because they cost 30$ or so. Was essentially paying 60$ to go look at toys and sneak pictures of celebrities. Was pretty disappointed. Managed to see some of the Eco-Marathon though, which was going on right outside. Very nifty little eco car thingys.

Other than the job, money and family stress...everything's good! Matt is sitting here playing God of War III....which I am studiously ignoring because it's gory as hell. He loves watching me play Fallout 3, but I like to hide when he plays his rip-em-apart games. Anyhoo, time for bed.

Onward

This week is going to be a busy but hopefully not too stressful one. I'm finally getting some responses to my applications, and I've got three interviews this week. I had a phone interview yesterday, which I will hear back from soon (I hope). I'm meeting with a temp agency Thursday to see if they can place me anywhere, and then Friday I have an interview at Sears. I'm just going to keep applying to anything and everything I can think of. Something will come up. I hope. Matt is the positive thinker in this relationship. He's my support. This last week has been rough, and he's been great at trying to take my mind off of everything.

Technically, last week was spring break, but neither Matt nor I really got a vacation. Matt's co-workers were all out of the office for some reason or another, so he was obviously a little bit busy. I grovelled for hours and ended up working Saturday, Mon-Tues, and Thursday, and also made some money doing a project for my boss personally. That was my favorite part of the workweek, doing the editing project. I have no idea where to look for jobs like that, but I think I'd enjoy it.

Anyways, we did manage to have a short vacation to Houston to see my dad. I'm really glad we went; it seemed to perk my dad up and we all had a little fun. Saturday morning I was sick as a dog up since 4am, but being the good daughter (hahha) I drove us to Houston anyways around 10 and perked up. The weather was atrocious, but we stuck to our plan of touring the Battleship Texas. Good Lord. It was cold. And wet. And there were little spindly ladders and tight spaces everywhere. I seem to remember it being bigger 10 years ago....(funny how that works?). Matt and Dad had a BLAST. I will post pictures at some point. They kept trying all the locked doors and crawling into spaces they probably shouldn't have. Dad was disappointed that the engine room was closed for repairs. I wasn't.

After the battleship we were all pretty soggy, so decided to try the Galleria for some indoor fun. Wow. I guess spring break + bad weather = CROWDS! I don't believe I've ever seen it that crowded. Matt enjoyed the Lego store though ;) We didn't wander around too much, ended up at a sports bar eating oysters and drinking beer (Matt had popcorn, not much of a fish eater). Headed off back to dad's hotel after waiting for our car for over 20 mins. In freezing rain. Oi.

Dad wanted to try this pub right by this hotel, which ended up being a great little place, looked like an English hunting lodge on the inside. The giant chandelier made of beer was awesome :) We proceeded to pig out on pub food and beers of various types. Dad was thrilled with the place and decided he would be coming back often (we'll see!). Crashed in bed around 11 or so; we had thought the Corvette Expo seemed like fun, but decided on the less expensive route of Katy Mills, which was about 5 miles from the hotel. Matt LOVED the mall, we found a comic shop and got about 5 each, and just had fun wandering around looking at all the stuff. Matt got me some jeans, which was fantastic because I can't remember the last pair that were actually bought and not hand me downs!

All in all, it was a good weekend with my dad. Strange being in a completely different side of Houston, and even stranger seeing him living in a hotel, but he was in good spirits and it cheered both of us up. This is the way our family is going to be from now on, and it's just something I will have to get used to.

Taking a Break

I've decided to take a break from school. Paying tuition on my own is prohibitively expensive. I'm living paycheck to paycheck because of the tuition and med bills (bills from getting a sinus infection that my insurance wouldn't cover.) I'd like to have spending money. I need new jeans, and a bathing suit, and have zero cash to buy them. Arg.

Taking a leave from school means I need a new job. You have to be enrolled somewhere to work as a student worker (duh.). So, I have 1.5 months to find new employment. Wish me luck!

It's beautiful out!

What a lovely morning. I have a fantastic boyfriend :)

It's slow at work right now

So of course I'm going to bore my non-existent following. It's finally starting to warm up, which is nice and not so nice. The humidity is skyrocketing, as is my sinus pressure. I haven't been able to breathe properly for a while now. Sigh. We broke out the benadryl and have been suckin them down. I really hate the walk to work though. I don't like the fact that I have a walk at all. You'd think being an employee would give you better parking privileges, but you'd be extremely mistaken. I pay for my parking permit (which I never would have used had I not worked at A&M), and park in the way far away parking lot. It's about a 15 min or so walk to work. It's ridiculous. If I want, I can pay 9$ to park in the parking garage, but that's even more ridiculous. Hopefully my next job won't require all these parking fees that suck out my paycheck.

Speaking of which, I get paid tomorrow (HURRAH!). I've got 30 (minus lunch $) til tomorrow, and just about 1/8th of a tank of gas. I can do it! :) This month really stretched our budgets, between moving, eating out more until the kitchen was ready, buying new furniture for the house, buying a washer/dryer. Luckily the purchasing is over, and I think we are finally settled in. Oh wait, have to buy wireless router. OK, other than that. We're good. :)

Once I get my router I can fix my new (old) computer that I paid 700$ for. At this point, as soon as I get it working I'm probably going to sell it. Need money more than video games!

I've been stressing out a lot lately, as any casual reader might have noticed. I'm trying to keep this drama with my family in check, and hold it in as much as possible, but it's just getting worse. I feel awful that Matt is my only outlet. I wish I had some friends to talk to about this.

Anyhoo, I'm starved. Burger time!

No I'm not engaged, or even close to it

...but I can't help my obsession with wedding blogs. They make my soul happy. My current obsession is offbeatbride.com. AMAZING.

Some of the ideas I have every intention of stealing...



I want colored crinoline. omgish. with a cocktail length dress. YES.



Aren't these great? felt flowers! how cute!

Another idea that I didn't have a picture of was for the cake, they put out a pile of books and stacked cupcakes on them. YES PLEASE.

Lost

I feel completely overwhelmed right now. I looked up my loans...and I have to start paying them off in June. When I don't have a degree to show for it. 21,000$. That's over 100$ a month for the next ten fucking years. I can barely afford anything as it is, how am I supposed to pay this too?! This is ridiculous. I can't find a job without a degree, but I can't afford to finish it until I find a better job. And now this? This system is ridiculous. Everyone tells you to get a degree...but why? All I have to show for college is a crapload of debt and a crappy job. Apparently I can apply to defer it since I'm below the poverty line. Not that it's a comfort (being in 'poverty')

And, I've recieved three replies from job applications. One rejected me for (wait for it) not having a degree yet, and two were scams. Goddamit. I'm getting tired of this. I didn't go to college to work at mcdonalds.

Bubbles!

Our washer and dryer are here! WHOOP! I'll be doing laundry all day if you need me!

Hm. Well.

Can you have an existential crisis at 22? Or is it a quarter-life crisis? Or is it just a 22 two year old whining? DING! Door number 3. I really just feel stupid calling it a life crisis. But...but....i dont like my life?! Am I allowed to whine about it on the blogosphere?! OF COURSE! that's what blogs are - avenues for self-absorbed people to write down their diary entries for the whole freakin world. It is interesting, when you think about it. We have twitter, facebook, blogs, myspace, whateverthefuckthis 'chatterbox' is (videochatporn?), and whatever the heck else we have to put every single silly moment of our life "oh, today I ate toast, I burnt it. wahwahwahhhh." Not that I'm guiltless, obviously, I'm blogging right now. Case in point, I think both my coworker and I are blogging simultaneously. But really...what are we moving towards? The Truman Show?


Anyhooligans. I'm getting so damn frustrated by this lack of job opportunity, and the fact that the people I went to high school with are all immensely successful jackasses. (they might be!!) I've applied for over 20 jobs. I have a good (GREAT) employment record. WTF. I don't want to work at dairy queen! I (ALMOST) have a degree?! Please tell me that this 20k in debt was not for nothing. Cause I might just have a fit. Another one. A bigger one.


Whatever. Diet. Sucks. I'm hungry and grumpy all the time (youuu? neeverrr!!!) I did great yesterday except for the taco dinner....nom nom...ok, no i didnt do that great yesterday. I snacked. but whatever. Im hungry. and I did work out

and I took the damn stairs today


which reminds me. It really disgusts me how obsessed women are with dieting. (AGAIN, myself included) We were standing around at lunch yesterday, and literally all that was talked about was FOOD. and what we are and aren't eating, and what points they are worth, and what workouts we are doing and blahh blahh blahh. Men don't do this. they don't try to one up each other with how little they eat. Men stuff their faces and enjoy themselves. Why do we do it? Why do women put themselves through this retarded charade of trying to be perfect? Sure, I hate my body, and I need to lose weight, if only to stop my back and knees from constantly hurting. But really...when I see skinny, or even pleasantly healthily plump women talking about measuring cups of cereal out...it makes me sick.

Sort of moved in?

Yeah, I know I said I was gonna keep track of what I've been eating on here. But honestly. Like I'm good at dieting. This weekend I did alright, I did splurge on some ice cream, and matt force fed me his sunday breakfast of pancakes and bacon. (he takes it personally if i dont eat it :p)

Mostly, it's little things I've been changing. Like, instead of parking in the parking garage, I've been walking the 15 mins from the lot to work. I tried (triiiieeedd) to do some of this ridiculous cardio dance DVD I checked out. it was ridiculous. darn skinny women with big hair. anyways. I've been having smaller breakfast, smaller lunches, healthier snacks. Hopefully I will see a change. HOPEFULLY. I think starting small is the way to go, that way I don't get overwhelmed.

Ok, since you all care nothing of this, next topic.

We are sort of moved in. The pile of laundry is scary. But we get our washer/dryer on Friday, and I'm very excited to finally have clean clothes. Not so excited about the ten loads I will have to do. :p

Almost all the decorations are put up, minus the office. The office has been that room where, if we don't know where to put something....we put it in the office. So we don't go in there much. Ya know, if you ignore a problem...? Or not.

Anyways, things are great. I'm trying to find a better, full-time job. And so far it isn't going so well. I just wish I was graduated already!